93.64Mb/s = 11.70 MB/s

Today got another nice speed... 11.70MB per second, can just download a movie within 2 minutes!
I like to check on speedtest.net for my internet speed. Feel happy when looking at those highly rated numbers.

Italy Perhaps

Thinking of going for my vacation at Europe.

Most probably Italy, perhaps doing some transit at Germany.

So what is so nice about Italy?

Didn't do much research yet but so far the reason I like there is because it is famous and popular.

And Mafia start from there... (Pledge the loyalty to the Corleone family)

There is.. Rome, Milan, Venice and a lot of famous tourist attraction...

not forgetting about the Vatican City.

Italy, should be a nice place to go.

Before going, I'd better get a camera first.

Thriving Gold

I realized I spend a lot... recently

At the early of the month I withdraw 8000 Rubles

I still remember on my birthday I spend roughly 2600 "belanja" my room mate for dinner at a Korean restaurant.

Then I should have 5400 left with me.

My daily expenses won't take me that much, the most is only about 100, and now I don't spend much for daily expense.

This roughly sum up to 1000.

The problem is after the 5400-1500, is should be 2900 left.

The fact is I only got 1000+ left with me.

Now when I am doing my account I cannot balance out everything have "not-knowingly"gone.

For me spending is a discipline, and I hate those who spend without thinking twice the value of money.

21st Birthday at Korston's Korean Restaurant

No families, no old friends, no hometown. This how my 21st birthday goes.

Another Nice Godlike Speed

My brother ask me to download Counter Strike, and amazingly I found out the speed of 3341 kB/s

Extraordinary Early Bird Speed

This morning I having a

Download speed of 66 Mb/s which means around 8.3 MB/s

Upload speed of 37 Mb/s which means around 4.7 MB/s

Point-and-Shoot or DSLR?

Still thinking either to buy a ordinary digital camera or get a DSLR

In consideration, somehow DSLRs cost a lot.

New Internet Service Provider -- Radionet

Speedtest result from speedtest.net

Not bad speed though...

AtoZ from Dad

Avoid negative people, places, things and habits.

Believe in yourself.

Consider things from every angle.

Don’t give up and don’t give in.

Enrich your life today. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery.

Family and friends are hidden treasures. Seek them and enjoy their riches.

Give more than you planned to.

Hang on to your dreams.

Ignore those who try to discourage you.

Just do it.

Keep trying no matter how hard it seems. It will get easier.

Live well, love lots and laugh often.

Make it happen.

Never lie, cheat or steal. Always strike a fair deal.

Open your eyes and see things as they really are.

Practice makes perfect.

Quitters never win and winners never quit.

Read, study and learn about everything important in your life.

Stop procrastinating. 

Take control of your own destiny.

Understand yourself in order to better understand others.

Visualize it.

Want it more than anything.

Xcellerate (accelerate) your efforts.

(Be prepare before you attend your examination. Study not gambling, no gain without pain.)

You are unique. Nothing can replace YOU.

(In all time before now and in all time to come, there has never been and will never be anyone just like you. You are unique in the entire history and future of the universe. Wow! Stop and think about that. You’re better than one in a million, or a billion or a gazillion …)

Zero in your target, and go for it!                        

being selfish

maybe I should be more selfish.

I don't need to give in my emotional so often.

and what else should I care about?

If study is my everything.

No New Room Available

No New Room Available

In my hostel...

Sad! :D

If I am in Malaysia, this shouldn't be my current problem.

Too bad I am studying at RSMU...

Fragrance of the Book

Haha... Just receive this email from my sister...

[  书香（稻香大学版）]
[  曲: 周杰伦   词: BirdtaN ]
[  专辑:  魔杰座（个人特加版）]
[  唱: BirdtaN  ]

大家好，我是 Bird
书香是因个人突来灵感而创作
来自于一位同学，正面对大学压力而想要放弃
想解开自己心中对大学压力的那份恐惧？
听听  书香  ！

※music※

对这个大学如果你有太多的压力
害怕了就不想继续读下去
为什么人要这么的脆弱懦弱
请你自己看看身边
多少人为学历在努力勇敢的读下去
我们是不是该努力
珍惜读书就算很大压力

还记得你说大学是你的梦想
随着书香课业继续奔跑
微微笑大学的压力我知道
不要哭让这首歌陪着你读书
把所有的压力全都忘掉
读书吧读到最后就美好

※music※ （好戏在后头）

不要这么容易就想放弃就像我说的
读不到的课程换个课不就得了
为自己的大学鲜艳上色
先把书涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧..大学毕业就是目的
帮自己加油加油这才叫做意义
大学毕业文凭
终有一天飞到我手里   （哈哈）

所谓的那压力
面对读不完的书已读到怕了
作业学术研究企划到绝望了
还有考试呢
我靠着家人在我背后支持我拼下去
哦哦..  家人朋友支持让我更努力
哦哦..  就算结果失败都不会放弃
珍惜读书就算很大压力

还记得你说大学是你的梦想
随着书香课业继续奔跑
微微笑大学的压力我知道
不要哭让这首歌陪着你读书
把所有的压力全都忘掉
读书吧读到最后就美好

还记得你说大学是你的梦想
随着书香课业继续奔跑
微微笑大学的压力我知道
不要哭让这首歌的陪着你读书
把所有的压力全都忘掉
读书吧读到毕业就美好

 

Shall I?

Shall I skip all class and emphasize my remaining time for pending Exams and Tests?

Shall I ignore anything and concentrate on those subject which I haven't finish?

Shall I choose to continue to study in Russian State Medical University?

Shall I study in a far-drop-behind education environment?

Shall I still fake myself being a what-they-call "medical student"?

Shall I just give up everything and go back to Malaysia?

Or shall I fight the last battle to gain victory, and quit like a hero?

Academic Debts Last Call

Orps... due date 15th September...

15th September also will be the day new incomer coming in.

Perhaps I will be expelled and see the new student coming in? Or I can really strive through what people already done one semester in advanced? The trend and surrounding show me the first, but I believe I can done the second one.

Basically there is only 2 subjects waiting me to clear -- Anatomy test and Latin Language exam. But that is also the hardest one. Hopefully those teacher will allowed me to pass easily without giving me a lot of troubles.

Today I chat with my parent in Vivien's room. Err.. not good to be in her room so often thou. But the feeling of talking to my parent was great. I like to talk to them and they always try their best to solve my problem.

Anyway, I have to finish my exam and test first.

PS: Dad, the little-frog-air-humidifier is a nice one. The rice cooker also help me a lot. Thanks a lot!

Pending Exams or Ignorance

Yesterday when they ask for Vivien's passport number for acquire the payment done to Mos-Lanka, I am unable to do it. The reason given by her is that I didn't clear my academic debts. Vivien wrote her name and didn't tell me anything, yesterday she was asked for her passport number to settle everything.

Just now I asked her what is the purpose of the passport number and realize it is for the registration for the new intake year. I don't know what to do. I feel so abandoned now, I know that over here no people should be trusted as usual. Most of them are always selfish.

Back in Moscow

I'm back in Moscow. So fast, so furious.

While waving goodbye with my family. I gone through all passport checking and goods scanning. Before I depart for the transit train near the viewing centre I wave for the last time. I going to take the train, but the door closed. I walk back to the viewing centre, is too late that I only can see their back. They walk away.

Walking into the Transit Train, I feel so fast. Time are fast when I really don't want it to be. I thinking of 2 months ago when I first landed on Malaysia, and now is time for leaving.

Before entering the air plane, I've been asked for weighing my luggage. It is overweight and they request me to pay. I claim that I've not enought money. I take out my rice-cooker, and let the rest of my hand luggage sent to the cargo.

The transit in Bangkok didn't take a lot of time. I meet Vivien there and we talk for a little.

Travelling in Thai Airways really a long journey. I sit there and waiting in the cabin for all the time. Most of the time I sleep. It is really tiring to have a 11 hours flight.

I arrived Moscow at 9.15pm (Malaysia Time)

It doesn't sound good when I mentioned I arrived Moscow. The custom take my passport into another room. They make me wait them there for some time. I standing there, hope nothing happen with my passport. Vivien didn't wait for me, she just proceed hers and enter the custom chamber. Everything went fine afterwards. I enter the city of Moscow.

I claim my luggage back. No problem with both my luggage. They are still in very good condition.

Vivien and I take a cab to our hostel for 1000 rubles. The traffic was congested during our journey back.

I carry my luggage to the 4th floor. The door knob lock is not working anymore. I can't put my key in. Another key have broken inside. I carry the rest of my luggage to 8th floor. We are very tired.

We take dinner with another group of people. They cooked and we just take the dinner. After that we left early and went to sleep. We are sleepy though.

1 day have passed. I'm back in Moscow. I feel so sad that time flies in Malaysia. Few day more school will start and I've to coop with everything again. Days in Moscow are slow, not as fast as the one in Malaysia. I've to wait for a long time before I can see Malaysia again.

#8

Since the beginning of time, spirituality and religion have been called on to fill the gaps that science do not understand. The rising and setting of sun was one attributed to Helios and a flaming chariot. Earthquakes and tidal waves were the wrath of Poseidon. Science has now proven those gods to be false idols. Science has now provided answers to almost every question man can ask. There are only few questions left, and they are the esoteric ones. Where do we come from? What are we doing here? What is the meaning of life and the universe?

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千里豪雕，萧飞千尺，
我心悠悠，含己隐意。

有别时分，却是不舍，
倒是相合，形色取去。

流水千丈，终有停息，
此情此意，绵绵无期。

无期之际，如有此笔，
潇洒挥挥，谁晓此意？

意中重重，贵有歌者，
歌着不苦，伤知音稀。

缓缓今日，子记此事，
再复往日，一笑了事。

宣州谢佻楼饯别校书叔云

弃我去者，昨日之日不可留。乱我心者，今日之日多烦忧。

长风万里送秋雁，对此可以酣高楼。

蓬莱文章建安骨，中间小谢又清发。

俱怀逸兴壮思飞，欲上青天揽明月。

抽刀断水水更流，举杯消愁愁更愁。

人生在世不称意，明朝散发寻扁舟。

忠诚与失信的约会

汉朝年间，有一个叫陈实的人。陈实，字仲弓，曾官太丘长。陈实为人正直，为官清廉，深受百姓的爱戴和好评。后来，陈实返回了故里，无官一身轻，当地远近的官员、乡邻村民们却都愿意尊称其为“陈太丘”。

　 有一天上午，陈太丘从街市返回的路上，恰好与曾一起供职的朋友意外碰面，毕竟两人也是多年未曾谋面，两人相拥一起，真道是友人相见，格外亲热。寒暄一阵 后，陈太丘执意要请友人到自家去好好叙上一番，友人家在邻镇，再加上陈太丘的再三邀请，盛情难却，两人边走边聊，很快就来到了陈太丘的家门口。

　 　一进家门，但见诺大的庭院，已被主人收拾的干干净净，各种物什，摆放得井然有序。陈太丘便去里屋叫来夫人孩子，热情地给他们介绍了一番。孩子们鞠躬施礼 后，便知趣地到庭院玩去了；夫人呢，与那友人客套几句后，就忙着要准备酒菜。友人见陈太丘一家礼仪分明，热情待客，打心底佩服陈太丘的为人处世。

　 　这时，陈太丘先把友人领进了书房，欣赏了几幅名人字画，各自赞叹和发表评论后，又双双坐在茶几旁，开始品茗。品茗是一种学问，在不紧不慢的举止间，有淡 淡而悠然的茗香从杯际腾起，人们可以回忆往事，咀嚼人生，细细思量很多很多。茗香飘逸，话兴正浓。就在谈笑间，夫人进屋，告诉他们，饭菜已齐了。

　　两位友人相拥而出，来到厅堂，只见八仙桌上已经摆好了足足有八个香喷喷的热菜。于是主人取出了一罐陈年老酒，铺上了两个精致的酒盅，那酒香很快飘散，满院飘香，扑鼻而来，两人对视一笑，端杯而尽，酒逢知己，越饮越欢。酒过数巡之后，友人开口说话了：“不能接着再喝了，我差点忘了，明天我还得去郡府会一好友，还得早点回去准备行装呢。”话音未落，陈太丘呵呵一笑：“这么如此之巧，明天我们刚好与你顺路，也得去郡府去办点事。”于是两人相视而笑。

　　酒足饭饱之后，两位友人约定，次日午时一块上路，地点就在陈太丘家门前的大槐树下。两位友人为了表达各自的忠诚，他们还在槐树前立了个高高的树干。如此之后，两人才揖手辞别。

　　次日，陈太丘提前来到了树干前，等了一段时间，眼看着树干底端的黑影渐渐东斜，午时已过。这时，陈太丘猜想着友人是别有他事而不能同行，或者是他已经提前出发了，于是就先上路了。

　　然而，就在陈太丘走完之后，他的朋友终于到了，左看右看，却不见陈太丘的影子，当即就气不打一处来，非要到他家去看个究竟问个明白。一到陈太丘的家门口，正看见他的长子正在家门口尽兴地玩耍。于是他便指桑骂槐，又象是自言自语地说道：“真不是人哪！跟人约好一块出门的，却又不等人。”

　　当时，陈太丘的长子刚刚年满7岁，名陈纪，字元方，是一个人见人爱、非常懂事的孩子。等他父亲的友人数落完后，小陈纪说：“您与我父亲约定在午时，午时不来，则表示不讲信用；对孩子骂他的父亲，则表示没有礼貌。”

　　铿锵数语，掷地有声。那刻，刚才还歇斯底里欢叫的知了已经嘎然而至，死一般寂静。那友人当即就羞愧万分，恨不得找个地洞钻了进去，并又想下车解释。抬眼处，但见小陈纪头也不回就进屋去了。

Forever Friendship

A friend walks in when the rest of the world walks out.
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend.
Someone who changes your life just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh until you can’t stop.
Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.
This is Forever Friendship.
When you’re down and the world seems dark and empty;
Your forever friend lifts you up in spirits and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full.
Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times.
If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows.
If you lose you way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on.
Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay.
And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete;
Because you need not worry, you have a forever friend for life,
And forever has no end.

路遥知马力，日久见人心

释义: 路途遥远才能知道马的力气大小，日子长了才能看出人心的好坏。

话说路遥和马力是好朋友，路遥父亲是富商，马力的父亲是路遥家的仆人。虽然是主仆关系，两人的关系很好。他们一起读书，一起玩耍。

　　到了该谈婚论嫁的年龄了，路遥有钱有势，不愁没老婆。而马力贫困实梗恢泵蝗颂崆住?

　　有一天有媒人给马力提亲，马力大喜，但是却要昂贵的彩礼。马力只好请同学路遥帮助，路遥说：借钱可以，但是结婚入洞房我来替你前三天。马力怒火冲头，但是又没有办法，总不能光棍一辈子，只好答应。于是选择好日子结婚。

　　马力煎熬过痛苦的三天，第四天该他洞房了，心里懊恼呀！

　　天一黑就一头栽进洞房拉被蒙头就睡觉。新娘子就问：夫君，为何前三夜都是通宵读书，今天却蒙头大睡？马力这才知道路遥给他开了个大玩笑，真实又喜又恼。被有钱的朋友给耍了。发誓好好读书，考取功名。后来还真考上了并在京城做了大官。

　　路遥性情豪放，侠肝义胆，最后却坐吃山空。看到自己一家实在无法度日，想起曾经资助的朋友马力，于是就和老婆商量自己进京找他帮助。

　　马力见到路遥很是高兴，热情款待，路遥说明来意，马力却说：喝 酒！喝酒！根本没有帮助他的意思，路遥很恼。

　　过了几天，马力说：路兄，你回家吧，免得嫂夫人牵挂！路遥只得气愤沮丧的回家。

　　还没进家就听见家里哭成一片，急忙进来。看到妻儿守着一口棺材痛哭，一见路遥进来家人又惊又喜。原来是马力派人送来棺材说：路遥到京城后，生了重病，医治无效而死．

　　路遥更加恼怒，打开棺材一看里面是金银财物，还有一纸条上写：你让我妻守三天空我让你妻痛哭一场。

　　感言 :

　　真正的朋友不在巧言令色 ， 贵在心犀相通 ，人生短短数十载 ，认识的朋友又有多少， 但真正能懂你心 ，又能真心疼惜得又有几人 ？

　　若是你很幸运， 已经有这样真挚的好友，珍惜吧 !

　　别因为一些琐碎的误会而轻言舍弃 ，真心的朋友是你一生之中最珍贵的财富， 让这一路上不再孤寂 。

of Evolution as theory and fact

"Fact"
Observation	Established Hypothesis
Facts are empirical data, objective verifiable observations.	'A fact is hypothesis that is so firmly supported by evidence that we assume it is true, and act as if it were true.' Douglas Futyuma.

"Theory"
A scientific theory is a well supported body of interconnected statements that explains observations and can be used to make testable predictions.

Gravity	Evolution
Things falling is an observation of the pull of bodies towards each other.	Fruit flies changing generation to generation is an observation of generational organism change.
Bodies pulling towards each other is called gravity.	Organisms changing generation to generation is called evolution.
Gravity is a fact.	Evolution is a fact.
Explanations for the facts of gravity.	Explanations for the facts of evolution.
Aristotle and Galileo created explanations of the fact of gravity. These are now obsolete explanations.	Lamarckism, Transmutationism and Orthogenesis were created as explanations of the fact of evolution. These are now discredited explanations.
Newton's explanation of gravity is approximately correct but required refinement.	Darwin's explanation of evolution is approximately correct, but required refinement.
Einstein's explanation is a refinement of Newton's explanation of gravity. Einstein's explanation is currently the most accepted explanation of the fact of gravity.	The modern evolutionary synthesis is a refinement of Darwin's explanation of evolution, which did not include genes in its explanation. This modern synthesis is currently the most accepted explanation of the fact of evolution.
Einstein's explanation of the fact of gravity is called The General theory of relativity.	The explanation of the fact of evolution provided by the modern synthesis is the latest and most widely accepted Theory of Evolution.
Gravity is a fact and a theory.	Evolution is a fact and a theory.

Thou shall believe, otherwise fall from hundred meters, and thou shall prove it.

Life by Kirsten Burns

Life is pain Life is sorrow Life is nightmares Life is love Life is laughter Life is sweet dreams Life is change Life is loss Life loosing everything Life is stability Life is win Life is gaining everyone Life is tears Life is hurt Life is grief Life is smiles Life is comfort Life is happiness Life is loosing Loved ones Life is gaining Yourself

A Friend Most True

I need to know if you’re my true friend,
will you be by my side until the end?
Can I tell you my secrets deep,
and trust them in your heart you’ll keep?
We are neither of us without our flaws,
can you accept mine as I will yours?
I’ll be a shoulder to cry on when you’re blue,
will you be there for me when I need you?
No matter how busy I will make time for you,
if you are busy will you make time for me too?
I will take your hand and comfort your tears,
will you hold me and soothe my fears?
I will give you joy and many warm smiles,
can we share that even across many miles?
I will not forget what’s important to you,
will you remember what’s important to me too?
With you my most favourite things I’ll share,
If only I know do you truly care?
If you can accept me as I do you,
then I will know you are a friend most true.

Love

Love is a friendship that has caught fire.
It is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving.
It is loyalty through good and bad.
It settles for less than perfection,
and makes allowances for human weakness.
Love is content with the present.
It hopes for the future and it doesn't brood over the past.
It's the day-in and day-out chronicle of irritations, problems,
compromises, small disappointments, big victories,
and working toward common goals.
If you have love in your life,
it can make up for a great many things you lack.
If you don't have it, no matter what else there is,
it is not enough, so search for it, ask God for it, and share it!

苍蝇的泪滴

音乐赏析

你的美丽像黑森林　
谁不着迷谁又靠得近
温暖还是冰冷冷　
猜测下一秒你的天气
宝贝还是玩具　
我怀疑我自已
戴苍蝇的眼镜　
太多你数不清　
一千种个性　
谁向谁说我爱你
你又不是垃圾　
也没有长细菌　
却让我生病　
亲一个让我痊愈
戴苍蝇的眼镜　
看你举棋对定　
一千颗泪滴　
告诉我有多爱你
即使你没反应　
我想我也愿意　
被一个温柔的表情　
骗我爱上你

日四题

闻枕芳香慢慢乏淡，
宝贝二词眼中消散。
岂是贵人心置远方，
信中为何不曾来探？

是以此信不能违抗，
并非君子铁石心肠。
误在许下如此诺言，
朝思暮想倒也无妨。

Name named not eternal name

Tao (道, Pinyin Dào ) is a concept found in Taoism, Confucianism, and more generally in ancient Chinese philosophy. While the character itself translates as "way," "path," or "route," or sometimes more loosely as "doctrine" or "principle," it is used philosophically to signify the fundamental or true nature of the world. The concept of Tao differs from conventional (western) ontology, however; it is an active and holistic conception of the world, rather than a static, atomistic one.

In Taoism, Tao both precedes and encompasses the universe. As with other nondualistic philosophies, all the observable objects in the world - referred to in the Tao Te Ching as 'the named' or 'the ten thousand things' - are considered to be manifestations of Tao, and can only operate within the boundaries of Tao. Tao is, by contrast, often referred to as 'the nameless', because neither it nor its principles can ever be adequately expressed in words. It is conceived, for example, with neither shape nor form, as simultaneously perfectly still and constantly moving, as both larger than the largest thing and smaller than the smallest, because the words that describe shape, movement, size, or other qualities always create dichotomies, and Tao is always a unity.

While the Tao cannot be expressed, Taoism holds that it can be known, and its principles can be followed. Much of Taoist writing focusses on the value of following the Tao - called Te (virtue) - and of the ultimate uselessness of trying to understand or control Tao outright. This is often expressed through yin and yang arguments, where every action creates a counter-action as a natural, unavoidable movement within manifestations of the Tao.

Tao is often compared to water: clear, colorless, unremarkable, yet all beings depend on it for life, and even the hardest stone cannot stand in its way forever.

Characteristics of Tao

Tao Te Ching (TTC). (道德经 Dao de jing) The book does not specifically define what the Tao is, as a matter of principle. Fundamentally, Tao is undefinable, unlimited, and unnamable.

There was something undefined and complete, existing before Heaven and Earth. How still it was, how formless, standing alone and undergoing no change, reaching everywhere with no danger of being exhausted. It may be regarded as the mother of all things. Truthfully it has no name, but I call it Tao (TTC, chapter 25)

However, there are characteristics of Tao that are commonly noted and used to describe its functioning, particularly as guidelines for practicing te.

Tao is undifferentiated

All distinctions are actually relative comparisons bound together by their mutual reference. Thus (chapter 2) there is no such thing as 'long' except by comparison to 'short' and vice-versa; there is no such thing as 'being' except by comparison to 'non-being'. Because Tao itself has no shape or size, all comparisons fall within it, so there can never be 'real' differences. Often this is used to suggest a neutral, giving attitude - see TTC chapter 49.

Tao returns

"Return" is a complex concept: in one sense it is similar to 'nature abhors a vacuum' - "That with no substance enters there with no space" (TTC chapter 43); in another it reflects the natural cycles of the world (changing of the seasons, births of new generations); in yet a third it implies the natural return to quiescence that is the end result of all action (TTC chapter 14). This concept is often used to argue against forceful action, on the grounds that Tao (and its manifestations) will flow back, circumvent, and eventually undo any attempts to force it into a particular path.

Tao is subtle and quiet

The most important aspects of Tao are its unremarkable, unnoticed, everyday workings - "the softest thing in the world overcomes the hardest" (TTC chapter 43). Many places in the Tao Te Ching point out that dramatic, enticing or noteworthy events may catch the eye and assume significance, but that it is the slow, slight, unobserved and continuous movement of the manifestations of Tao that actually accomplish things. In this context, practitioners are cautioned to be unobtrusive, undemanding, and unsophisticated in their actions, and to know when to let go so that the unseen workings of Tao can carry the act to its completion.

Tao is simultaneously dispassionate and nurturing

Because all beings are manifestations of Tao, Tao - by definition - gives of itself wholly and completely to each. But by the same token, Tao is indifferent to the disposition of mere manifestations. Birth and death and life itself, from the perspective of Tao, are only movements and transformations of form. This is often used to suggest selflessness and detachment to practitioners; compare with the Buddhist notion of anatta (no-self).

In terms of western philosophy, the concept of Tao would be considered immanent, but it is a universal immanence that has no strict comparison to the normal (western) use of the term. There is nothing transcendent about Tao, no part of it that is separate from the universe.

Tao and life

While Tao is deeply metaphysical, it is not intended as abstract philosophy. Instead, everything in the world is considered to be a manifestation of Tao - including people, and the societies and structures they create - and Tao is viewed as a constant, active force in the universe. Because of this, Tao is not presented as a moral or ethical code, nor as a set of ideals to be attained, but rather as a functional reality that is encountered on a daily basis. Tao in practice (referred to as Te) involves conforming one's actions to the natural movements of Tao. In general, the Tao Te Ching holds that human behavior does not naturally follow the Tao:

The Tao of heaven is to take from those who have too much and give to those who do not have enough. Man’s way is different. He takes from those who do not have enough to give to those who already have too much. (verse 77. Tr. Gia Fu Feng)

and it consistently suggests that it is beneficial to cease trying to force the world into a given form and let the natural process of the Tao manage things:

Whenever you advise a ruler in the way of Tao, counsel him not to use force to conquer the universe. For this would only cause resistance. Thorn bushes spring up wherever the army has passed. Lean years follow in the wake of war. Just do what needs to be done. Never take advantage of power… Force is followed by loss of strength. This is not the way of Tao. That which goes against the Tao comes to an early end. (verse 30. tr. Gia Fu Feng)

...

Tao abides in non-action yet nothing is left undone. If kings and lords observed this, the ten thousand things would develop naturally. If they still desired to act they would return to the simplicity of formless substance. Without form there is no desire. Without desire there is tranquillity. And in this way all things would be at peace. (verse 37. tr. Gia Fu Feng)

It is useful to note that in taoist thought, Te (virtue) is not a property of people or a quality to be attained, the way that virtue is often conceived of in Western thought. Virtue is instead the natural state of Tao:

All things arise from Tao. They are nourished by Virtue. They are formed from matter. They are shaped by environment. Thus the ten thousand things all respect Tao and honour Virtue. Respect of Tao and honour of Virtue are not demanded. But they are in the nature of things. Therefore all things arise from Tao. By Virtue they are nourished, developed, cared for, sheltered, comforted, grown and protected. Creating without claiming; doing without taking credit; guiding without interfering - this is Primal Virtue. (verse 51. tr. ibid )

It is not achieved through action or intent, but by allowing it to be supplied.

Tao in the Tao Te Ching

Any understanding of the concept of Tao is complicated by the age of the philosophy, and the myriad problems caused by translating and interpreting the text. There are over 100 translations of the work into English alone, with significant differences in emphasis, insight, and even the basic structure of the document. What is known is that the current version is significantly shorter than the original document, that the original document was structured in longer passages than the 81 short chapters conventionally used, and that commentary by later users has been blended with the original text. This can be seen even in the famous first lines of the text:

tao k'o tao fei ch'ang tao
ming k'o ming fei ch'ang ming

First, the recently discovered Mawang Dui text suggests that the character "ch'ang" ('constant' or 'unchanging') was initially the character "heng" ('eternal'). The change is thought to have been made for political reasons: 'heng' was the name of an intermediate emperor, and using an emperor's name in other contexts was prohibited. Further, characters in Chinese often have multiple semi-related meanings which can only be distinguished in context. Tao, as noted above, can be translated as 'way', 'path', 'doctrine', 'principle', and etc. However, the text itself is elliptical and enigmatic making proper context difficult to determine. Translated literally, the above passage reads something like:

Way wayed not eternal/unchanging way
Name named not eternal/unchanging name

Translators, thus, are forced beyond simple translation into interpretation, if only to create sentences that sound correct in English. Add that the original text clearly had strong political and social elements, while most modern interpreters are primarily interested in the spiritual and metaphysical aspects, and the opaqueness of the concept becomes understandable.

Discussion of the metaphysical aspects of Tao are largely confined to its first book - generally taken to be the first 37 chapters - and vary between lyric depictions of tao as ineffable and indescribable, and encouragements to approach the tao through observation and emulation rather than description or any intellectual formulation. See, for instance, chapter 15 which says (Mitchell translation):

The ancient Masters were profound and subtle.
Their wisdom was unfathomable.
There is no way to describe it;
all we can describe is their appearance.

and chapter 25

The Tao is like a well:
used but never used up.
It is like the eternal void:
filled with infinite possibilities.

It is hidden but always present.
I don't know who gave birth to it.
It is older than God.

道可道，非常道

我们中国最早谈道的经典《简易道德经》里所述：“简，道之根。易，经之本。道，事物之行径。经，事物之步法。无简之道则曲，无易之经则荒。简生道，道法于 自然，失道无恒，循道而长。”说明了，简是自然现象所依的最基本规律。道以这个规律为根本就成了事物的行径。这个行径即有规则的道。不是以简为根本的行径 是曲折的。所以，正直的道就是出于简即为简生道，道的动作方法依赖于自然，取决自然就是真正的道。事物要是没有这个道，就不会永远地生存下去。要是遵循这 个道，不但能长久地发展而且还会不地增长壮大。

　　道，无形无象，无声无嗅，大而无外，小而无内，但却是产生天地万物，主宰天地万物的总能源。
　　道，又名真空、性、灵、炁、金丹、佛性，在不同的宗教和经典里，名称叫法不一，但本质指的都是一个。

　　道是产生一切形式的根本，也是主宰一切形式的根本。人们唯有去除一切的形式，才能够见道，此谓“为道日损”。可惜的是，当今大多的修道者和学术研究者，不是“为道日损”，而是“为道日增”，总想通过有为的方式，形式上的手段认识和了解大道，如此只能背道而驰。

　　东方阳熹
　　道，就像水一样，无声无息无为而养万物，此道之力，人不可及。唯有无为而寻道方可及道，另行他路比自损道行。

Did Einstein believe in God?

Answer

Albert Einstein is on record as saying that he did not believe in a personal God. He said:

"It was, of course, a lie what you read about my religious convictions, a lie which is being systematically repeated. I do not believe in a personal God and I have never denied this but have expressed it clearly. If something is in me which can be called religious then it is the unbounded admiration for the structure of the world so far as our science can reveal it."

Einstein also said:

"I am a deeply religious nonbeliever. This is a somewhat new kind of religion. I have never imputed to Nature a purpose or a goal, or anything that could be understood as anthropomorphic. What I see in Nature is a magnificent structure that we can comprehend only very imperfectly and that must fill a thinking person with a feeling of humility. This is a genuinely religious feeling that has nothing to do with mysticism. The idea of a personal God is quite alien to me and seems even naive."

Answer

Albert Einstein is on record as saying that he did not believe in a personal God. The keyword is personal. Einstein did not believe that god knows or cares about you on a personal level, that he hears your prayers or interferes in anyway in response to prayers. Instead, he believed that there was a God that maintained and created the harmony of the universe.

On whether he considered himself religious: "Yes, you could call it that. Try and penetrate with our limited means the secrets of nature and you will find that, behind all the discernible laws and connections, there remains something subtle, intangible and inexplicable. Veneration for this force beyond anything we can comprehend is my religion."

On whether he accepted the historical existence of Christ: "Unquestionably! No one can read the Gospels without feeling the actual presence of Jesus. His personality pulsates in every word. No myth is filled with such life."

On whether he considered himself an atheist: "I'm not an atheist. The problem involved is too vast for our limited minds. We are in the position of a little child entering a huge library filled with books in many languages. The child knows someone must have written those books. It does not know how. It does not understand the languages in which they are written. The child dimly suspects a mysterious order in the arrangement of the books but doesn't know what that is. That, it seems to me, is the attitude of the most intelligent human toward God."

On the nature of God: "That deeply emotional conviction of a presence of a superior reasoning power, which is revealed in the incomprehensible universe, forms my idea of God."

On whether science leads to religion: "Every one who is seriously involved in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of nature--a spirit vastly superior to that of man, and one in the face of which we with our modest powers must feel humble. In this way the pursuit of science leads to a religious feeling of a special sort."

On how religion motivates scientific inquiry: "The cosmic religious feeling is the strongest and noblest motive for scientific research."

On whether science and religion are at odds: "The situation may be expressed by an image: science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind."

On how he feels about atheist efforts to claim him as an ally: "There are people who say there is no God, but what makes me really angry is that they quote me for support of such views."

On how he regards atheists: "The fanatical atheists...are creatures who cannot hear the music of the spheres. I do not share the crusading spirit of the professional atheist. What separates me from most so-called atheists is a feeling of utter humility toward the unattainable secrets of the harmony of the cosmos."

to be or not to be

I feel very frustrated....

I'm just tired of everything

I feel cheated...

cheated by an unfaithful heart...

cheated by a lost soul...

cheated by someone hurt me.

I feel my world is a world of essence

not a world of emptiness,

by corruption of people

who shouldn't appear in my life.

Why can I spend time

but not thou?

Why can I give my faith

but not thee?

Perhaps you are different,

I am different...

You may walk away and left me behind,

for I will not stop you,

nor I will chase you back,

but don't turn back to me,

cause you may dishonour my loyalty,

and that with all I did faithfully.

Live the life you want,

and you are set free.

If you can't devoted time for this,

prove me that,

then I believe that your soul are weak,

and I will let it be.

Childhood Days

When you came into the world, she held you in her arms.
You thanked her by weeping your eyes out.
When you were 1 year old, she fed you and bathed you.
You thanked her by crying all night long.
When you were 2 years old, she taught you to walk.
You thanked her by running away when she called.
When you were 3 years old, she made all your ms with love.
You thanked her by tossing you’re your plate on the floor.
When you were 4 years old, she gave you some crayons.
You thanked her by coloring the dining room table.
When you were 5 years old, she dressed you for the holidays.
You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.
When you were 6 years old, she walked you to school.
You thanked her by screaming, “I’m not going!”
When you were 7 years old, she bought you a baseball.
You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor’s window.
When you were 8 years old, she handed you an ice cream.
You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.
When you were 9 years old, she paid for piano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.
When you were 10 years old, she drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastics to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, she took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shown.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

Those teenage Years
When you were 13, she suggested a haircut that was becoming.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.
When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.
When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.
When you were 17, she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.
When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

Growing Old and Gray
When you were 19, she paid your college tuition, drove you to campus, carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of your friends.
When you were 20, she asked whether you were seeing anyone.
You thanked her by saying, “It’s none of your business.”
When you were 21, she suggested certain careers for your future.
You thanked her by saying, “I don’t want to be like you.”
When you were 22, she hugged you at your college graduation.
You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.
When you were 23, she gave you furniture for your first apartment.
You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.
When you were 24, she met your fiancé and asked about your plans for the future.
You thanked her by glaring and growling, “Mother, please!”
When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.
When you were 30, she called with some advice on the baby.
You thanked her by telling her, “Things are different now.”
When you were 40, she called to remind you of a relative’s birthday.
You thanked her by saying you were “really busy right now.”
When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.
And then one day she quietly died.
And everything you never did come crashing down like thunder.
“Rock me baby, rock me all night long.”
“The hand who rocks the cradle … may rock the world.”

Let us a moment of the time just to pay tribute and show appreciation to the person called mom though some may not say it openly to their mother. There’s no substitute for her. Cherish every single moment. Though a times she may not be the best of friends, may not agree to our thoughts, she is still your mother! She will be there for you … to listen to your woes, your bragging, your frustrations, etc. Ask yourself … have you put aside enough time for her, to listen to her “blues” of working in the kitchen, her tiredness? Be tactful, loving and still show her due respect though you may have a different view from hers. Once gone, only fond memories of the past and also regrets will be left.

Don’t take for granted the things closest to your heart. Love her more than you love yourself. Life is meaningless without her …

兰亭序

兰亭临帖 行书如行云流水
月下门棰 心细如你脚步碎
忙不迭 千年碑易拓 却难拓你的美
剩几阕 真心能给谁

牧笛横吹 黄酒小菜有几碟
夕阳余晖 如你的羞怯似醉
我本已写 而墨香不退淤泥都有余味
一竿朱砂 到底揭了谁

无花风月 我提取的泥灰
悬笔欲绝 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解
无花风月 我提取的泥灰
悬笔欲绝 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解

弹指岁月 轻唱清歌净延绵
青丝半截 回眸一笑你婉约
恨了美 你摇铜镜叹 谁让你蹙秀眉
而声回 徒留胭脂味

人雁南飞 转身欲别离溅泪
菊已八月 收揽回忆怎么睡
又怎么会 心事密封搜刮谁睁着眼对
落花怨蝶 你会怨着谁

无花风月 我提取的泥灰
悬笔欲绝 那岸边浪千叠
情字何解 怎落笔都不对
而我独缺 你一生的了解

无花风月 我提取的泥灰
手书无愧 无惧人间是非
雨的蕉叶 又消瘦了几夜
我等着泪 来提醒你爱谁

A Test of Faith

The world reign,

A drop of fear.

I’ve already be tighten with a handcuff,

By a little girl.

The handcuff full of suffer

And merely pleasure.

Merely pleasure in my fear,

It seems like a deeply lure,

To a world of my dearest dear.

While the night is young,

I awake from my consciousness

An awakener fills with darkness,

And intense fearfulness.

The handcuff is tight,

I tend to strive open with my might,

After few time I tried,

The handcuff is still in my sight.

Some time later I understood,

This is a handcuff of prosecute,

To a profound level of where love stood,

Which I once curiously look.

Now I wish the handcuff to be always tight,

Because the key was always hide.

I hope whom the handcuff prosecute is always the right,

So that my fear may cease,

And also my fright.

The world reign, a bit of fear, a test of faith, a love of real.